LL Cool J "Impotent Demon"

In this essay the rapper talks about the trauma he suffered as a child seeing his father shoot both his mother and his grandfather with a shotgun. His mother recovered his grandfather did not. He says how much of an inspiration his mother was to him becasue she continued to live here life as if nothing ever happened even though she was in a wheel chair and she always looked like nothing ever bothered her since she had already gone through more then most people will ever go through.